Rev Martina Schmidt's Blog

Recently, I had a past client/student of mine describe me as a "wounded healer" and then proclaim that she had surpassed me in her spiritual growth.  I have a few thoughts on this concept that I would like to put out into the virtual universe. I AM A WOUNDED HEALER.  I AM ALSO A POWERFUL WARRIOR HEALER- who faces her wounds head on and dives in DEEP to restore myself and integrate all the beautiful lessons that life throws my way.  I am deeply a-ok with this fact.  I don't try to portray myself as "above" anyone else- this concept makes my stomach curl.  I truly believe I am no more valuable than the homeless man begging in the Wal-mart parking lot- we are both precious in the heart and eye of God. Do I have pain? Yep.  Do I have challenging relationships with some of the people I love most in the world? Yep.  But do these make me not equipped to help others on their journey.  Not one fucking bit. IF, I ignored those issues and denied th...

I was on a phone call with an old friend yesterday and she mentioned that she doesn't want any more "drama" in her life. DOES THAT SOUND FAMILIAR? Have you found yourself wishing for the same thing? saying the same words? I bet you've said it before........ but let me offer you another thought. When a client tells me they want "no more drama" in their life, what they are usually saying is that they want "no more conflict" or for things to be easy in their daily experience. Think about it- what are your really hoping for when you say, "no more drama"...... Are you saying, "I am tired of participating in these situations where there is difference of opinion" or perhaps, "I am tired of feeling the discomfort of things being in a state of change/chaos" Now sometimes, as we all have experienced, the drama is not our shit to deal with- it's somebody else's drama. And in those moments, we can ask ...

This year has been such a journey for me- a wonderful, healing, piss me off and bring out the nasty in me (because that shit's got to go) kind of year. I just celebrated my 45th birthday.  It was insignificant in the grand experience of my life- and I am deeply thankful for that.  I actually had a calm, loving and peaceful day with myself and my husband.  Having used to be someone who really NEEDED my birthday to be a big deal- you know expecting everyone to send me a card, have a local parade & sing to me as I walk down the street- kind of expectation.  But, interestingly now, I don't feel that way anymore.  I am just really really happy to let it be simple.  I wish I could share some profound wisdom with you as to how this came to be- but I have no idea what the fuck happened.  I am just plain ol' happy I was born. That being said, this year has been filled with some serious "aha" moments for me.  As I have said in a few of my ...

I just completed this piece called, "Dream Big".  My artwork has always been a reflection of what I most need to hear from my Soul in this moment to grow spiritually. This week I began listening to my Soul by painting a HUGE canvas I purchased from goodwill.  It was covered with what looked like an Alien woman walking down the street in Paris by the Eiffel tower with a scary poodle and a hat that filled up half the painting- all done in blue, white and black. Probably one of the ugliest paintings I've seen.  But a canvas that's 3ft x 3ft for $7.99- I couldn't pass that up! I was even a little embarrassed taking it up to the counter to pay for it.  I kept getting raised eyebrows and a few snickers.  I just kept smiling and said,  "I'm rescuing it" to anyone who'd listen. Then over a process of many days and at least 7 layers of paint I stood back and thought- "My goodness there's so much going on here, I don't really know wh...

SO many changes have been flooding my life.  It's monsoon season here in Arizona, so no surprise the weather matches my world.   As I open myself to pursuing a whole new path of putting my artwork "out there" in the market- researching sales reps, trade shows, marketing strategies, reading books on selling your artwork as a business, I am overwhelmed by so many choices, and "shoulds" crowding my mind.  I've never been for the small time world- I like to "go for it", to do my best and give it everything I've got.   I am reminded of the funny quote by Hunter S. Thompson- “Life should not be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside in a cloud of smoke, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming "Wow! What a Ride!” But so many choices...... so many directions to go and so much money needed to get there.  I find myself s...

Man I feel great! Me and My Sweet Hubby Swimming at Fossil Creek in AZ. My winter really sucked the life out of me..... literally.  I was hanging on a thread every single day. Diagnosed with Adrenal Exhaustion, I made the decision to do everything I could to change that.  So I took that last thread of energy and I used it to ask for help- from God, from my doctor and most of all from myself. And God, my doctor and I all answered that call. Slowly but consistently my adrenal exhaustion has been improving & my energy levels have been feeling normal and my life feels full again.  I cannot tell you how great it feels to be able to get up at 5:30am, totally awake and ready to go for the day!  And to make it through the day without energy crashing and wanting to crawl under a rock to shut out the world- that's a great feeling to be able to cross of my list. But, I had to give up a few things along the way in this commitment to my own wellness...... ...

(Today's Blog is dedicated to my cousin & Soul friend Michael C.) I knew I would like her the minute she walked into the waiting room.  Her black cowboy boots with hot pink angel wings and sparkles made me smile.  "Thank you" I silently whispered to God.   It was a simple message, in Soul words- "She will understand you". It's been over 6 years since I've been to the doctor. Yes, I know some of you women are gasping at the lack of yearly physicals, etc.  but..... that's my choice.  I'm a nature girl all the way.  I have no need for a pap, or breast exam- no matter what the fear of the world is around me.  Why?  Because if cancer where to enter my world- I would simply keep living the loving nourishing way I have been for the last six weeks, and if that didn't do the trick.... I'd allow myself to move onto the next adventure in the next world.  Death has NO fear for me.  I trust it's timing, no matter what. So...

It's been a hell of a hard month.... not everyday, but the days that are difficult are so hard they bleed into the few days after.  Ever have days like that? I am going through a rebirthing process.  Birth is NEVER easy, it is challenging for the mother and for the new child being born.  As a nurse in Mom/baby I watched more births than I can count, and every one left me in tears with the beauty and miracle of the experience...... every single one.  It wouldn't matter if I walked in right before the delivery or spent hours with the mother to be- it was deeply emotionally touching to witness.  And, it had me in tears every time. Right now I am rebirthing myself.  And I am also witnessing the birth.  So I am mother, child and midwife- and it is exhausting. My contractions are waves huge waves of grief that come unexpectedly, without provocation or cause.  When the first one hit me a few weeks ago, I thought "Holy shit this sucks!".  But...

The road of healing is not an easy one..... the road to illness, well now that's been a long waterslide for me- easy, slippery and downhill fun all the way.  When I hit that pool at the bottom, which I did three months ago, I realized how high that climb back up to the top was going to be. The last 10 years have been so hard on my body- let me rephrase that, I have been so hard on my body.  After so many years of overworking myself, over-giving and only minimally addressing my basic physical needs- I finally hit bottom.  My body gave up. I thought all was well until about three months ago I crashed physically.  I could barely sleep more than a few hours at a time without waking up with nightmares and anxiety.  My heart would be racing and my stomach growling.  My blood sugar was crashing and signaling my adrenals to wake me up quickly so that I would wake up the next day.  My adrenals were on their last limb and I was feeling it in every way....

Looking out over Sedona Valley from a Cave Seriously..... I cannot believe it has been over a year since I sat down and blogged my thoughts.  I mean, I swear, it's not like I haven't had a shit ton of them.  This last year has been FULL of transformative and awesome thinking.  Perhaps it's the birds I hear singing outside my window, calling me to take a walk, or the deep rich air of Cedar, or my vibrant acrylic paints begging me to be stroked and blended across a canvas.  I'm not sure, but all of these reasons have been worth the vacancy I've offered here on this blog- I promise. I've come a LONG WAY BABY in just this last year.  As many of you may know, I packed up my life, my husband and kitty cats and took a 4 day drive cross country to move to Sedona, AZ  (A place I have always felt at home).   Leaving my grown children behind to create their own lives was the hardest part.   Because of that brave, brave endeavor, I am Spiritually ...

This seems to be a consistent fear or worry of so many people- does evil really exist or am I opening myself up to evil when I open the door to spirit.  I did a video on my youtube channel revmartina444  http://youtu.be/Wb5f39Qk9Kw  that deals with opening the door to spirit- but never really addressed the topic of "evil" existing.   This isn't a new topic to me- as I have explored many facets of this over the years doing the work that I do.  What is clear to me is that when I open the door to spirit I open the door of my heart and the realm I connect with has NO EVIL whatsoever- only LOVE.  However, in this reality, on this plane of existance, I have seen and felt and experienced forces of resistance, pain and negativity that many would consider "darkness" or "evil".  So does evil exist?  Let's ask the CREW their take on it. Me- Guys, what's your explanation for this- Does evil really exist? Ann- This like many other que...

So several questions came in last week related to life purpose..... everyone wonders at some point in their life, why am I here?  Do I have any gifts? And what the heck am I supposed to do with them? Valid and powerful questions to explore..... So I went to the crew this morning and presented some of your questions about PURPOSE to see what lovely guidance they had to offer. Me: I have heard a lot of questions come in about WHY are we here? I have my own feelings on that,  but I'd like to hear what you all have to say about it. Ann: A simple way to explain it is that each of you chooses to come here to create and play and experience YOURSELF within the playground of duality.  Duality does not exist in our realm.  Separation does not exist in our realm.  While we are able to remain unique in our expression of the ONE SOURCE of all life, we still feel, know and understand at all times our connection to each other completely.  There are no pr...

I wanted to, as promised, tell you more information about my CREW. Today, I feel it is most fitting to begin with my Master Guide, Red Eagle.  What is a master guide?  A master guide also known as 'the guardian angel' who walks beside you through your whole life journey.  They have lived upon this Earth and have mastered the challenges that you are taking on. They offer themselves completely and freely in service to you during your lifetime and often through many of your lifetimes. They are not assigned to you but are are chosen by you personally. Even if you don't recognize their presence in your life they are there- fully loving and fully encouraging you to choose with your best self's interest in mind. When I was a child I had an imaginary friend named Rody.  I don't remember Rody at all, it was just something my mother remembers around the age of 2 or 3 for me.  As I grew up I was completely unaware of this presence any longer. I know now Rody was...