Letting go of Instant Gratification......
This year has been such a journey for me- a wonderful, healing, piss me off and bring out the nasty in me (because that shit's got to go) kind of year. I just celebrated my 45th birthday. It was insignificant in the grand experience of my life- and I am deeply thankful for that. I actually had a calm, loving and peaceful day with myself and my husband. Having used to be someone who really NEEDED my birthday to be a big deal- you know expecting everyone to send me a card, have a local parade & sing to me as I walk down the street- kind of expectation. But, interestingly now, I don't feel that way anymore. I am just really really happy to let it be simple. I wish I could share some profound wisdom with you as to how this came to be- but I have no idea what the fuck happened. I am just plain ol' happy I was born. That being said, this year has been filled with some serious "aha" moments for me. As I have said in a few of my other blogs, I ha