Rev Martina Schmidt's Blog

There is a gentle force that contains me- that contains all of us within it's embrace. It reminded me yesterday to "Lean in" when I wanted to feel it's calmness, safety and peace. So as a stressful thought offered itself into my mind, I noticed it for what it was, a stressful thought. I took a deep breath, leaned back into my own spine where I felt my truth, my strength and the presence of love, my own Soul, holding me still- to watch, to accept and to detach from the thought. The only thing we ever have control of is our internal experience- and even that takes much awareness and practice to control.  Our mind pulls at us constantly, feeding our fears and the illusion of control. Our mind so often leads the way with thoughts of fear, doubt, lack, anxiety and confusion- even grandiosity and separation.  And in the words of Michael Singer "We can either lean in to Self or fall." To fall, is to try to fix those thoughts and the feelings they create b...

Life is a ferris wheel. It goes around and around, up to the top, down to the bottom- where one day we choose to get the hell off. Sometimes the circle flows slowly and lingers at the top, feeling spectacular and fulfilling. And other times, it's f***ing nauseating and feels like the guy running the machine has lost his marbles. Some days I sit back and wonder- is my life just stuck in high gear? I am a perfectly sane, deeply aware and grounded individual, but the chaos around me is almost too much to bear at times. Yet, I'm sticking it out, cause I like that view from the top. Might even admit I'm addicted to it. I love the moments after hell has broken loose, faith was held, truth was spoken and feet were planted firmly in who I am, that I find peace and a deep quiet sense of "see everything does work out for the better". AKA- the View is Great from UP HERE.  Today I'm in that place. The wheel's been spinning fast these last few months. I...