Rev Martina Schmidt's Blog

Life, for me, can get so focused on meeting the needs of others.  And while I love to do this, am passionate about it in fact, I have to recharge and refuel my spirit from time to time. And, I call the same beautiful soul every single time I need to do so.  It might be 2 weeks since I've seen her or two months but it always feels like home when we get together. So yesterday, I ached inside for my girlfriend.  Nothing in particular was bothering me, but I just was missing her company.  So, I reached out, made the phone call and she made herself available to meet for lunch and girltalk.  And, it was simply wonderful...... As we both sat there indulging in our favorite foods and catching up I felt a deep sense of gratefulness for her presence in my life.  Both of us grew up with mothers who raged at us and because of this, both of us have had deep issues of trusting women.  I realized in a soft moment of awareness that I truly trusted this woman's ...

Everyone needs someone to tell them the truth- and only love is the truth.  And, everyone needs someone to speak that truth back to them.  But what do you do when no one shows up to play that role for you?  You become it for yourself! I came across a new show (on CBS news- link is at bottom of post) entitled Note to Self by Maya Angelou, one of my spiritual mentors in this life.  And I was immediately touched and inspired by the idea of writing a letter to my teenage self from the view point of my life now. What would I tell myself? How could I validate and still step back and let that part of me go through her dark night of the soul? All questions I pondered deeply in my meditation this am. As weird as it seemed to me when I first discovered the idea of "no time & all time" in quantum physics- meaning to me (bear with my non-scientific explanation) that the past, present and future all exist right NOW and what we are experiencing really has to do ...

Tonight I was touched by Love. I realized I have been angry about a lot of things I haven't allowed myself to even deal with and this has led to some harsh behaviors on my part.  Yuck, yuck, and ouch. While I do not feel shame, because I truly love myself and know I'm doing the best I can, I do feel remorse- Remorse for not having allowed myself to be more patient and let my steam cool down before I responded. Because I didn't wait, I burned two people who didn't really deserve my fire-y words. As I sat down tonight, became still and relaxed a familiar voice came forward.  It melted my ice and opened my heart and healed my thoughts.  I let go of my anger which served as a wall guarding my heart.  I opened my eyes and saw the innocence of the two women I mistreated.  I cried and I woke up- to myself, to love. I am human. My life constantly reminds me.  I am love. My life constantly reminds me. I asked for forgiveness and in the asking alone I am alr...

I have a card that sits in my art room, that I purchased at Three Sister's Spirit which reads: I'm fairly certain that given a Cape and a nice tiara, I could save the world Now, aside from the literal translation- I love this card and it's truth because of what it reminds me about myself and my life. My "Cape" is my faith of a divine plan for my life.  I carry it on my shoulders as a sense of responsibility to myself and to my fellow souls on this Earth.  I know in my heart I am here with a very clear purpose and that my life will flow and carry me in each moment towards expressing that purpose.  If I enjoy it or not, it's my choice. I discovered my purpose in 2001 at my ministerial training retreat.  Our teacher had suggested that we go sit with God, alone, and listen to why we had been called to the ministry.  I admit I was afraid, not of hearing nothing, but of actually hearing something that felt too big, or heavy to take on. It wasn't...

Oh my dear sweet heart, how I cherish you. Your tender heart is soft with tears and open open open. How I long to hold you close to me and bring you a cup of tea, to wrap you in love blankets and sing you a song of you. The world is busy and full, but you can take your time my dear sweet heart.  You will not be left behind. Oh, how the Universe sings when you sit quiet and listen. The freckles on your face remind me of all the angels who have kissed your cheeks whilst you were sleeping. Rest my sweet heart.  Rest your angel heart & wings. All is well and life holds itself awake for your return.

I have been enjoying reading so many blogs this month and wishing I could put my words to paper as eloquently as those I have been reading. Mostly I have been inspired by a blog I read by dreamphemera about relationships.  My chin was on the table at how precisely I felt she had put all of my confusion into a deeper, clearer perspective.   I gained the most in recognizing who and what I want from my own friendships and what I do not want to have to agree to anymore. As a child I was taught to include everyone in my life, my sacred space of me, or God will be disappointed.  This,  I believe was an expanded truth from my mother, sunday school teachers, etc. of the Golden Rule- which I have now revisited.  To treat another as I would chose to be treated is a truth for me that reflects my desire to treat myself the way I want to be treated and to be an example of that for others.  If I am unthoughtful of my time, energy and needs- so too will others b...