Rev Martina Schmidt's Blog

Recently, I had a past client/student of mine describe me as a "wounded healer" and then proclaim that she had surpassed me in her spiritual growth.  I have a few thoughts on this concept that I would like to put out into the virtual universe. I AM A WOUNDED HEALER.  I AM ALSO A POWERFUL WARRIOR HEALER- who faces her wounds head on and dives in DEEP to restore myself and integrate all the beautiful lessons that life throws my way.  I am deeply a-ok with this fact.  I don't try to portray myself as "above" anyone else- this concept makes my stomach curl.  I truly believe I am no more valuable than the homeless man begging in the Wal-mart parking lot- we are both precious in the heart and eye of God. Do I have pain? Yep.  Do I have challenging relationships with some of the people I love most in the world? Yep.  But do these make me not equipped to help others on their journey.  Not one fucking bit. IF, I ignored those issues and denied th...

A few weeks ago I taught a class on reincarnation and it was powerful for me and for those who attended.  I haven't always believed in past lives.  In fact, I grew up Southern Baptist and was taught, "One shot, that's all you got."  So, when the idea of past lives showed up for me, I struggled to let it in. When my son was a small boy, like the child in this video, he used to say things to me that I found slightly "freaky", like...... "You were my mom the last time I was here but you're not my mom in the next time." "What do you mean next time?", I asked confused. "Next time you work in a big building as a writer I think, but you are best friends with my mom." Huh? "So what's it like there in this 'next time' ", I ask. "There are lots of big silver buildings everywhere." Ok.   Very weird. He was quite young, around the age of 5 and definitely in love with his momma and not...

Sheep in Wolf's Clothing I've been doing some deep clearing work on myself lately. I found a new technique for "deep cleaning" the auric field ( The Healing Codes ) and it's bringing up some interesting memories and images for me to explore.  For me it's been a spiritual, emotional and mental detox that then moves through the cellular detox of my body- so I'm feeling like I have a touch of the flu most evenings.  I recognize this as a healing response; a sign that things are getting cleared & It feels great to let it all go. This morning as I was in meditation and letting the images of forgiveness move through me, I heard the voice of my guide speak to me.  I've been working with a new Spirit Guide, since my longtime dear friend and guide Red Eagle introduced and "handed me off" to her. Her name is Anne (Annie to me) and today she presented me with this image/idea to contemplate.   "If you see someone behaving in a wa...

Tonight I was touched by Love. I realized I have been angry about a lot of things I haven't allowed myself to even deal with and this has led to some harsh behaviors on my part.  Yuck, yuck, and ouch. While I do not feel shame, because I truly love myself and know I'm doing the best I can, I do feel remorse- Remorse for not having allowed myself to be more patient and let my steam cool down before I responded. Because I didn't wait, I burned two people who didn't really deserve my fire-y words. As I sat down tonight, became still and relaxed a familiar voice came forward.  It melted my ice and opened my heart and healed my thoughts.  I let go of my anger which served as a wall guarding my heart.  I opened my eyes and saw the innocence of the two women I mistreated.  I cried and I woke up- to myself, to love. I am human. My life constantly reminds me.  I am love. My life constantly reminds me. I asked for forgiveness and in the asking alone I am alr...

I'm melting today. You know the feeling, when your body goes all soft and tired and you feel like a wet noodle just pulled out of hot water. Yep, that's how I feel. My essence is leaking out all over the house and it's looking like someone else will have to do the clean up- LOL, cause there's not much of me left but ooze and I ABSOLUTELY LOVE IT. Do you ever get to the point where your body takes over and says, "that's it, lights off- you're done my dear."? It seems I think my tank can run on empty and even when the vapors are evaporating I try for just a wee bit more- then..... I melt. I know some of you are gasping, "my how unhealthy" and "you should stop sooner", but my lovelies, I've learned it's how I work. And, it works really really good for me. In fact, when I try to do it the other way, taking frequent breaks, etc. I just don't thrive. I LOVE GOING FULL ON and FULL OFF. And, I'm not gonna fight ...

Oh my dear sweet heart, how I cherish you. Your tender heart is soft with tears and open open open. How I long to hold you close to me and bring you a cup of tea, to wrap you in love blankets and sing you a song of you. The world is busy and full, but you can take your time my dear sweet heart.  You will not be left behind. Oh, how the Universe sings when you sit quiet and listen. The freckles on your face remind me of all the angels who have kissed your cheeks whilst you were sleeping. Rest my sweet heart.  Rest your angel heart & wings. All is well and life holds itself awake for your return.