Rev Martina Schmidt's Blog

Recently, I had a past client/student of mine describe me as a "wounded healer" and then proclaim that she had surpassed me in her spiritual growth.  I have a few thoughts on this concept that I would like to put out into the virtual universe. I AM A WOUNDED HEALER.  I AM ALSO A POWERFUL WARRIOR HEALER- who faces her wounds head on and dives in DEEP to restore myself and integrate all the beautiful lessons that life throws my way.  I am deeply a-ok with this fact.  I don't try to portray myself as "above" anyone else- this concept makes my stomach curl.  I truly believe I am no more valuable than the homeless man begging in the Wal-mart parking lot- we are both precious in the heart and eye of God. Do I have pain? Yep.  Do I have challenging relationships with some of the people I love most in the world? Yep.  But do these make me not equipped to help others on their journey.  Not one fucking bit. IF, I ignored those issues and denied th...

It's been a hell of a hard month.... not everyday, but the days that are difficult are so hard they bleed into the few days after.  Ever have days like that? I am going through a rebirthing process.  Birth is NEVER easy, it is challenging for the mother and for the new child being born.  As a nurse in Mom/baby I watched more births than I can count, and every one left me in tears with the beauty and miracle of the experience...... every single one.  It wouldn't matter if I walked in right before the delivery or spent hours with the mother to be- it was deeply emotionally touching to witness.  And, it had me in tears every time. Right now I am rebirthing myself.  And I am also witnessing the birth.  So I am mother, child and midwife- and it is exhausting. My contractions are waves huge waves of grief that come unexpectedly, without provocation or cause.  When the first one hit me a few weeks ago, I thought "Holy shit this sucks!".  But...

The road of healing is not an easy one..... the road to illness, well now that's been a long waterslide for me- easy, slippery and downhill fun all the way.  When I hit that pool at the bottom, which I did three months ago, I realized how high that climb back up to the top was going to be. The last 10 years have been so hard on my body- let me rephrase that, I have been so hard on my body.  After so many years of overworking myself, over-giving and only minimally addressing my basic physical needs- I finally hit bottom.  My body gave up. I thought all was well until about three months ago I crashed physically.  I could barely sleep more than a few hours at a time without waking up with nightmares and anxiety.  My heart would be racing and my stomach growling.  My blood sugar was crashing and signaling my adrenals to wake me up quickly so that I would wake up the next day.  My adrenals were on their last limb and I was feeling it in every way....

This seems to be a consistent fear or worry of so many people- does evil really exist or am I opening myself up to evil when I open the door to spirit.  I did a video on my youtube channel revmartina444  http://youtu.be/Wb5f39Qk9Kw  that deals with opening the door to spirit- but never really addressed the topic of "evil" existing.   This isn't a new topic to me- as I have explored many facets of this over the years doing the work that I do.  What is clear to me is that when I open the door to spirit I open the door of my heart and the realm I connect with has NO EVIL whatsoever- only LOVE.  However, in this reality, on this plane of existance, I have seen and felt and experienced forces of resistance, pain and negativity that many would consider "darkness" or "evil".  So does evil exist?  Let's ask the CREW their take on it. Me- Guys, what's your explanation for this- Does evil really exist? Ann- This like many other que...

A friend of mine is going through what I would call an extreme challenge.  Her son faced a very difficult situation years ago- he was a teenager and had a long term relationship with a young lady who was also a teenager.  After he turned 18, the relationship ended in a bad break up- as most teenage relationships do.  The young lady, angry about his ending things, decided to make him 'pay' for leaving her and reported to her mother that the relationship had been an intimate one (and perhaps you already know where I'm going with this). Because of our federal laws, this is considered sexual abuse and this young man ended up in prison for 3 years. I remember when it happened.  It sickened all of us who knew and loved him.  How could this happen?  It made no sense to me- the unfairness of it all.  The relationship had been consensual and they were only 2 years apart in age.   Through this whole ordeal, he kept his head high and his heart op...

Holy Shit.... it's been awhile.  I almost forgot I even had a blog. Until last evening one of my "crew members" Ann- came to me and said, "We have something new we'd love to do through you." "Shoot", I said "I'm all ears" and sat down and closed my eyes to listen. Listening to Ann, means getting settled and getting quiet and opening my heart.  It takes my full attention. You see, Ann, is not alive- not in the physical sense that is.  Ann is one of my spirit guides, one of a group of four awesome Souls I call "My Crew". "Your getting better at connecting with us and hearing us accurately" she said.  "We'd like to ask you to let us teach through you now.  To communicate with those who have questions about life, the afterlife or whatever strikes their fancy. And we think you are ready to let that happen." "Do you mean channeling?" I said with slumped shoulders.  "I don't wan...

There is a gentle force that contains me- that contains all of us within it's embrace. It reminded me yesterday to "Lean in" when I wanted to feel it's calmness, safety and peace. So as a stressful thought offered itself into my mind, I noticed it for what it was, a stressful thought. I took a deep breath, leaned back into my own spine where I felt my truth, my strength and the presence of love, my own Soul, holding me still- to watch, to accept and to detach from the thought. The only thing we ever have control of is our internal experience- and even that takes much awareness and practice to control.  Our mind pulls at us constantly, feeding our fears and the illusion of control. Our mind so often leads the way with thoughts of fear, doubt, lack, anxiety and confusion- even grandiosity and separation.  And in the words of Michael Singer "We can either lean in to Self or fall." To fall, is to try to fix those thoughts and the feelings they create b...

Miriam- My Spirit Helper for Mediumship There is something that I am deeply, deeply grateful for that most people aren't even aware of in their own lives- the voices of my spirit guides. I spend most of my days with at least one spirit beside me and sometimes 2-3.  They are constantly offering helpful hints, little jokes and ways to look at life that help me breath easier.  I LOVE these souls- Red Eagle, Annie, & Miriam. I have never met them in the physical world.  They are not individuals from my own family who have passed.  And yet, they are deeply important to me and I love them as much as if they were. I get asked all the time by my clients, "How do you connect with your Spirit Guide?", "Who are they?" And frequently hear, "I would LOVE to hear mine like you do". My reply is usually, "Well then you need to spend the time with your guide like I do. You need to make the relationship valid & real and invest your time and ene...

Have you ever had a deeply spiritual and transforming experience that you couldn't wait to share with your friends, loved ones or co-workers because you just knew it was going to change their mind or life?  And did you notice that after sharing the experience you felt a little less excited or deflated in some way?  This is a common occurrence when sharing your Sacred Experiences with others. It's because spirituality is a one on one experience- it's subjective. To try and share the feelings of elation, "proof" and transformation with others is to share the experience vicariously and indirectly and it just plain ol' loses it's punch. I have had many a client run home to tell their family members about the amazing reading they had, only to meet with skepticism and hole punching enthusiasm.  It hurts but it's human nature to be skeptical. We are so afraid of being made a fool of, or being ripped off and we can't wait to point out how anothe...

Waldorf & Statler- The Muppet Show Hecklers Waldorf : These seats are awful.  Statler : Why? Can't you see anything?  Waldorf : That's the problem. I can see everything.  One of the great lessons, I believe, that Jim Henson taught me as a child is to face the hecklers in my life and to recognize they are a natural part of our every day audience. Never are we faced with 100% support by everyone we meet.   There are always going to be those who don't appreciate the performance you are giving the world.  And most likely, they'll let you know about it. And hardly ever do we meet change in our life without some part of us resisting it with nasty or fearful comments- trying to get us to stay right where we are, or to plain ol' just give up and get off the stage. Kermit the Frog, one of my gurus in life, never gave up.  The show must go on! He did however constantly deal with interruptions, complaints and the insecurities and big egos...