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The best way I honor my body is to "listen" to it aches and pains as cries for love and attention. Recently I had my blood pressure taken and it was 128/86 !!!  I was shocked and also, paradoxically, not so surprised. I went home and sat with the information in meditation. It came to my attention that my "hypertension" was really inner anger.  I couldn't immediately identify what I was angry about, but, when I found myself yelling at my son and my husband the next morning about having to micromanage their lives I witnessed myself.  Yikes...... there's my anger and it's ugly today. So, over the next few days the anger began to seep up from my blood vessels to my awareness.  Lordy lordy, I'm seeing anger all over the place in small doses, adding up to a hell of a lot.  So, it's boundary setting time again in my world.  Time to pull the word NO back out of my pocket and use it. I've also booked a trip to Mexico for JUST my hu...

For 10 years now I have taught the spiritual mastery program in person. I have filled many a group with my vivacious, rowdy & playful teachings on God. I have committed myself to being fully present once a month to teach, heal, motivate, challenge and love each and every student I work with. But ladies and gents, I'm tired. I want it to be easier, funner for me. I need it to be new and fresh again. It is time, in fact, I venture to say it has BEEN time for awhile now, for me to take this show "on the road", the cyber road that is. I'm ready, I'm willing and I'm gonna learn a heck of a lot teaching in this new way. And, my creative juices are flowing again and that feels pretty darn good.... (sigh) Website to Register   or to read more about it ;)

What can I say, I have GREAT friends. One of whom decided to get me to play hooky from my life recently and tempted me with a lollipop! Not just any lollipop, but a pink lollipop made of cake and icing, with tiny sprinkles of love. I love every bit of that sweet little treat- and I do mean the friend, not just the lollipop. To have those in my life who know how to spoil and cherish me, to encourage me to say yes to play and silliness, these are the treasures I keep near to my heart. Today, I simply say thank you- to all of you who have made me laugh, let me be me, enjoyed my stupid jokes, and encouraged me to give you more. I love you and treasure you. You are my true lollipops in life. Consider yourself licked! LOL.

No matter how many times I say this to myself, it seems to be my last resort- to ask for help. Why??? Am I just a stubborn ass? Yes, my darling, I am. I want to do it all myself. I don't want help, until of course I do. And then, I'm usually screaming and stomping for it :) My mother tells me a story about a 2 year old Martina on her first day of Daycare, insisting that her mother stay in the car, that "she could do it by herself". My mother watched as I marched up to the door of the church daycare and smiled while I jumped up and down trying to reach the door handle, to no avail. Eventually, I turned around and stomped my feet, hands on hips, and shouted for her help. Ugh.... it continues to this day, I admit. Life is so much easier when I do ask for help. No shit, right? In fact, I think I've convinced myself, I'm pretty darn good at asking for help until I find myself irritated and snapping at everyone because "nobody's helping me!...

I am imperfect and I celebrate this. I start things and don't always finish them. I let my laundry pile up and I just shove it aside. I lose my temper. I have a double chin that I really don't like. I use the word stupid way too often. I gossip. I can be very judgmental. I don't give a shit about diets or looking like I "should" I overeat often. I only brush my teeth once a day. I watch a soap opera and like it. I can be selfish. I love to lay around and do nothing when I have things that need to be done. I can blame others for my own unhappiness. Thank you Brene Brown for the book: The Gift of Imperfection & Dani Sutliff for recommending it!

Watch this video and then think of something you could leave on the doorstep of another- and I definitely vote for stranger! The Great Ding Dong Ditch from patience salgado on Vimeo .